I spent 15 years identifying as a lesbian before I realized I was trans. For 13 years of that time, I blogged as a lesbian conservative. I was quoted by the likes of Michelle Malkin and Sean Hannity. I left the right wing not long after Trump was voted into office. I now say I am neither right nor left and tried to connect with the left - only to be viciously attacked for not being “left enough”. I don’t really belong anywhere. I’ve spent most of my adult life working in public safety (EMT, firefighter, paramedic, now a 911 dispatcher and emergency management coordinator). I’m very dismayed to see how both sides seem to be as extreme as ever and I’m afraid we’re headed for a major break.
Consider 'classical liberal' if you want to evaluate politically.
I would be considered 'trans' but don't identify as such, nor consider myself part of the community.
Glad you were able to understand yourself better. When we try to conform, even as a non-conformist, we tend to hide what/who we really are. Being honest with yourself, about yourself, regardless of the labels, however those labels are defined, will lead to longterm happiness (or at least the chance for it).
I am a classic liberal gay man... but classic liberals are apparently not liberals anymore according to the far left side of liberalism. I also identify as a homosexual because that "G" in LGBT no longer represents me. I first noticed something was wrong when lesbian and gay friends in academics started getting bullied by students and then later terminated. The next thing that happened was a lesbian journalist friend did a story about lesbians and was labeled a TERF. Once she received that label she was publicly attacked, received calls at home, her editors were contacted, she was smeared and attacked on social media, and then the most frightening and disgusting things happened. She started getting death threats, threats of violence and the most disgusting rape threats. More than one person sent her a story about raping then killing her. The general consensus among LGBT media and LGBT orgs. is TERF is an appropriate thing to call women. They will justify it's use then accuse a person of transphobia when it is stated that it is offensive to call a woman TERF.
This prompted another lesbian journalist to say "The "L" in LGBT is silent.
The current Left of the LGBT community is not liberal, it is Authoritarian and Fascist. Many far left parts of the community are promoting communism and other ideologies that go against our core values. A liberal should say clearly without a second thought "coercion, sexual harassment, pedophilia, rape, death threats, an threats of violence are not in our core values." It is basic liberalism. We support free speech, even if we disagree with what someone is saying, NO platforming is not a liberal value. Liberals debate we welcome open discussions and dialog, the current idea of there is NO debate and debating things is wrong, goes against liberal values.
The changing of what gay and lesbian into "Same Gender Attraction" goes against liberal values. First of all classic liberals recognize that gendered stereotypes and roles is a corner stone of sexism and homophobia... at least we did at one time. Liberals also used to understand that LGB are subjugated based on our same SEX attraction. Changing the definition to same gender and not same sex also says homosexuality is conditional we can easily be attracted to the opposite sex depending on the circumstances. That goes against all of my liberal values.
So who am I now... I am a free thinking homosexual male that does not support fascism, homophobia, sexism, and racism. I can never be a conservative for several reasons... mostly economic and global issues. I'm still technically a registered Democrat... but that is not so much supporting Biden as much as it is voting against Trump, if I am perfectly honest.
Congratulations, you're a Free Thinker! Neither of the two "sides" will accept you, as neither are intellectually independent and free-thinking people are a threat to them, but there are MANY people who are free-thinking just as yourself and would happily welcome your brain to help sharpen their own intellect! I have such a group I'm cultivating discussions with on my Discord server, let me know if you would like an invite -- but most of all, know that you do belong!
I understand your feelings. I'm very left-leaning, but I always struggle with feeling like I'm not "left enough" because there are certain things I strongly believe we need to talk about within the LGBT community - not only trans issues, but problems with "micro-labeling" that might unintentionally be adding to trans- and homophobia - that nobody wants to talk about because "everyone is valid and LGBT and if you bring up these concerns, you're a bigot." But on the other extreme of that, I face purely mean-spirited transphobia. I wish I knew what the answer was.