I feel your pain, but set your sights on what you want to achieve in life. For me, I wanted a family to love and be loved by, which was really difficult in this promiscuous Western World we live in. I married a Filipina and have never looked back - I face-timed my grandson in Thailand this morning, and made him giggle - so satisfying. But I started in the depths of despair when I was in my late 20's. Check out [jacobsm.com] for some early thoughts, and [jacobsm.com] the first long paragraph, which is where I have reached to today. It's amazing what wisdom you can accumulate over a well-spent life